why is it always me who has ruined people's life?
why is it always me which need to do the impossible?
why instead of someone else doing it,it has to be me?
why was i born with unluckyness?
why with that unluckyness does it not stay within me,but betrayed others?
why from this day onwards should i quit everything i'm doing?
why do people lose trust in me for a small matter?
why does the world turn up-side-down when it was not suppose to?
why does the world just keep me out of everything?
WHY DO EVERYTHING I DO JUST TURNS OUT WRONG?

10 beautiful WHYS to be answered...
but somehow it couldn't...
i had to...
and need to...
everything impossible really somehow fall on me and not anyone else...
watever i do will lead to more chaos...
a small matter that couldn't be sloved no matter wat...
a word that i said that changed everything around me...
the life that i had that should not be trusted...
the things that i do that destroy it all...
the back-stabbing that i couldn't control...
but someday...
i just have to leave it all...
for one single thing...
for one single betray...
for one single untrustness...
FOR EVERYTHING...
i just hope my life could end here..but it wouldn't...
the games that i played...
the people who i met...
just have to dissapper when i'm not looking...
the phone call that didn't stop ringing...
soon came to an end...
the messages that exploded...
just stop exploding...
the people that talked to me...
just stop coming...
the fun that i experience...
just stop its playing ...
my life has turned up-side-down...
but i always...
always...
always...
accpected it...
the last sweet good bye...
would have been the best...
but somehow...
it became...
untrusted...
and soon this world just close right infront of me...
never to open again...  POSTED BY NATALIE AT 11:16 PM